Halloween

So, I was stuck on jury duty for awhile but I'm back now! Here's the quickie: Slim N Six ROCKS! The guy Steve? Hmm, his voice is just a bit too feminine for me. I don't doubt his masculinity per se, but it's really difficult for me to constantly hear his voice. And "S" is SO out of the picture...yes, you've heard me say it before but this time is for real. I think I need to be totally single for a minute...not focusing so much on guys right now. I am thinking to just perfect my ultimate body and enjoy my life right now. If 'the one' comes along perfect, if not...that would be so uncool. We shall see.

Love and Charms,

ACS

B-DAY

So, of the 40 I was aiming for 5 have been lost...an old flame has come back suddenly looking for "friendship" "S" and I either had a major break through last night or a major blow to our very own situation...and me and R are well, I don't know. He tells me he has to fly out to India...on my birthday, but changes the flight to the next day, which is cool. I come home and there is a BEAUTIFUL set of stargazer lillies waiting for me. (My favorite) as well as other gifts...he knows what to do to keep me THERE. No, it wasn't the fact he gave gifts, just the TYPE of gifts...personal and thoughtful, proof he's paid attention all these years. Whatever to do?

One Prospect...

So, I have a very valid reason for not giving you this update sooner, rather than later...there is a potential mate. Oh and since I've blogged, I've had 3 potentials: one was quickly shot down, the second took a day or so and I shot the 3rd one down today. First, back up, I had one of the most irritating blind meetings ever. I told him to meet me at a Half Price Book Store and we would go from there. He's like, 'Come over' umm what? We meet up and instantly, I feel ready to vomit due to the overwhelming smell of cigarettes and beer. He tells me he had a few beers to relax after work...."how many beers exactly" I asked. "Six" WOW...what can I say? He's trying to kiss me and tell me he wants me to come to his house blah blah and did I mention the picture posted on his profile must have been 17 years old? Okay, maybe not 17 but probably 5!

On to this new guy....details will come soon. Maybe I will have something to say this weekend...and in the meantime, yes, I am scheduled to see "S" tomorrow just for...coffee.

Love and Light,

ACS

So Kill Me!

During this brief hiatus, I have faithfully done my yoga, walking AND searching. I've discovered a lot about, well, moi! Okay, so "S" totally ticked me off and was advised that the "friendship" wouldn't continue from my end...instead of jumping at the chance to beg for my forgivness, he allows not 1, not 2 but 4 days to go by without communicating with me. Of course during this time not only was the number deleted from my phone, BUT also removed from my Sim card, so you know I was serious, right? Anyway, I get the text asking if I'm no longer communicating and of course, yours truly is cool as a cucumber...my feels regarding our friendship have officially changed from 'OMG, this is great' to 'Yea, whatever'...and the person I feel is my forever forever, is trying to get back in good graces with me....hence the beautiful Italian photo. I hope you can now see why it's been a few days, okay weeks, since I've blogged...don't judge me!

Love and Light,
ACS

Tuesday...Mourning...Somewhat

I know it's been since like, the 3rd since we've communicated, but hey, I just haven't been in the mood to write out all these emotions! It's been almost 4 full days since "S" and I have spoken, which is fine...technically, but something in me is really tripping over the fact that he has yet to make an effort to reach out to me. I am like, 'How can you NOT want to talk to me?' I know that sounds incredibly vain, but I honestly don't mean it in that way. I am just over here like 'are you really that rude and inconsiderate?' Oh well, I know I shouldn't deal with him anyway...and why did I get a blast from the past the other evening from someone that I SO don't even want to even look at? Oh, well, at least this picture of sexy Sydney beach is beautiful!

Love and Light,

ACS

Well, the last time you heard from me was on Sunday. I've perfected my body during this time period by the Indian dancing I prev told you about, as well as my daily walking and yoga. I was so peeved with "S" last night and expressed as much...letting him know that I feel like EVERYTHING is always on his terms, ect. He didn't appreciate me telling him that I feel like he's being selfish and the 'base' in my voice when expressing it. I called him this morning and we spoke for exactly 43.8 minutes, discussing last night's conversation and what we're going to do or NOT do for that matter going forward. I think I was cool with saying whatever and calling it a day, but then I saw him in the elevator and man, oh man, did my feelings of desire just boil over for him! What to do, what to do?

Love and Light,

ACS

Sunday

So I did this ULTIMATE Indian Dance today that blasted a good 250 calories in 30 minutes. Prior to that, I did a good 30 minutes of power walking and I cooled down with a 10 minute bike ride. I spoke with someone VERY special for over an hour today and nope, it wasn't "S"--although I attempted to call him and got his voicemail. Oh well, what the heck can I say? At least I got a major workout today!

Love and Light,

ACS